Long Time No Say...

WOW - I could barely remember how to sign into this thing it has been so long since I have written. I was sitting here working this evening and I suddenly just decided I didn't want to finish what I'd started (perhaps this makes me a quitter) and decided to write instead.

My sister wrote me a letter on her blog on the 1st of May. I received a Facebook notice at work that I was tagged in a post and the tag led me to her blog, which was a lovely message to me about the "old days" when we used to keep up with each other through our blog posts and a recap of her life of late.

I had a strange reaction to the post - I think I cried big fat tears for a good 10 minutes. I don't cry big fat tears...I might have a moment of "choked-up" or "shiny eyes" or "distorted mouth" if it is a real doozy, but big fat tears rolling down my face and chin...nope. I was pretty surprised at the amount of gratitude I had for my sister that day and the realization or remembrance of the joy I got from both writing and reading the posts we wrote.

It really begs the question, "why don't I write anymore"? I'm not really sure, but I hope to pick it up again to see if I can recapture the desire to do something I quite liked to do in the past.

My sister is a very entertaining writer - mundane things and events always seem so entertaining when she writes about them. I like the way she sees her world as a sweet kind of funny; at least this is how I read it. I write more...formally (I guess is how I would describe it) not to be confused with 'correctly' or 'properly' and it just doesn't seem to read as "fun" as hers.

My life...well, if I say all I do is work right now, that would be a fairly accurate statement. I certainly do not want to come across as a martyr in this statement, because that is NOT how it is, but I would like to branch out a bit in the near future to do something besides work. Sometimes, when I have down time at home, I feel guilty and wonder what I should be doing...it is really kind of strange. I have to wonder if this is why I don't have much to write about...hmmm.

I will say that I have been determined to go on a BIG trip this year...why work so much if you can't enjoy your labors in some way away from everyday life? Trav and I have a friend that visits us every few months when he goes through town on work and he and I decided a trip to Italy would be FANTASTIC! So much history, such beautiful country, oceans, cities, etc. We decided we would all go to Italy in October. I even started thinking about buying the Rosetta Stone language trainer to see how much Italian I could learn between now and then.

Well, come to find out, Travis is SO NOT interested in checking out Italy...who doesn't want to check out Italy? I don't really understand and I am not sure if I want to bother with pushing for it. I know, however, that October will be here in a blink of the eye and I will be wondering why I didn't push for SOMETHING amazing.

Trav DID remind me that I have some rather lofty ambitions of late:

• Remodel kitchen and main floor bath
• Buy a new car
• Go to Italy
• Buy a hot tub
• Expand the deck at the front of the house

I guess I should scale it back a bit, but, like my boss always says, "big things don't happen if you're only thinking small". 

I AM Grateful,

HB